tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1480179783791526388.post6389583615652013093..comments2023-06-14T07:44:07.875-07:00Comments on Strength, Serenity, and Wisdom: Cross-roadsmrsreynolds4musichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14468758689325160696noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1480179783791526388.post-33010337496857878932016-02-15T15:50:14.868-08:002016-02-15T15:50:14.868-08:00Let me preface this by saying I do not understand ...Let me preface this by saying I do not understand exactly what you are going through, but I relate on a different level. <br /><br />For me, the negativity is coming from a specific colleague and my schedule has me so isolated I cannot escape it. I have really fought it all year but along with other things it has really pulled me down and I did not realize how much until recently. <br /><br />The only advice I can offer is to follow your heart...it will guide you to what is best for you. Also, realize you are human and if you never had an existential crisis you would never grow, never find true happiness, and never discover who you really are. However, that doesn't make the struggle any less. <br /><br />This is not a matter of quitting...this is a matter of where do you want your path to lead. Despite how my evaluation has gone this year, I consider myself fairly successful at what I do but I will be honest...it is exhausting and I'm not sure I would be as good at it if I couldn't devote all my time to it. I made that choice and there are many moments I question it because of the doors it closed, but it is the path I feel I am here to fulfill. People who are not sensitive, naturally reflective, and introverted don't really understand just what it requires of a person who is. <br /><br />And if this path is leading you away from happiness, perhaps it is the wrong path. The only other thing I know for certain in my life is that it is too short to waste it being unhappy, keeping things inside, or trying to be someone you aren't. However, it can be easy to completely unravel in these moments and lose perspective...once you regain balance you will see things clearly and the path will be clear. <br /><br />One thing I have learned is that students with that behavior are hiding their pain behind their actions. You may or may not be able to reach them...all you can do is try and let go if you cannot. Also, they do listen to you. They won't show you, but years later they will say something to you and you will realize they actually did hear you. Sometimes our job is not to cultivate the garden but to plant the seeds they are missing to do so on their own. <br /><br />I will end by saying this, whatever you decide is the right choice; embrace it without apologize and chase after that future. You are a wonderful person and your soul is strong--it will guide you to your path and the truth. I am always around should you need to talk...contrary to popular belief I can listen quite well. You will get through this and you will be stronger and happier for it. *hugs*Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com