I had my oncologist appointment this afternoon. No big changes. The tumor was measuring about the same as two weeks ago, but she said its becoming "nondescript" - The edges are less defined and harder to measure. Which I agree, its definitely getting softer and closer to when I first discovered it and was unsure if there was actually something weird there or not. I'll be meeting with my surgeon for an ultrasound in a couple weeks to get more clear information on its progress.
We also discussed my Sunday-Sad-Day a few weeks ago and she said it was a result of "steroid crash". I take steroids for two days after each treatment. She decided to extend (but not increase) the steroids to taper off the dose so I wouldn't experience the crash as much. Ween me gently.
TOMORROW IS MY LAST A/C CHEMO. YEAY! But I'm also anxious about this end, and the new beginning with Taxol. I was becoming used to A/C and comforted by the predictability of its side effects. Now I have to get used to a new type.... sigh. I want to be friends with my healing materials.
I submitted my FMLA papers to work and it was officially approved today. That means that I can miss work for up to 60 days without penalty of losing my job. Woohoo! Yeay, for keeping my job.
Something strange that the nurses and doctors keep asking me: "You still going to work?" Like, at some point, they expect me to stop going. I plan to continue working as long as I feel able. The question just makes me feel weird, as if they expect me not to. I really hope that's not in my future. Anyway, I think its the best thing for me. Keeps me feeling somewhat normal, and moderate exercise is good for healing and treatment. I just need to make sure I maintain a balance between staying active and not working TOO much and hindering my healing. I do feel like I'm staying balanced, however. Last Monday, I went home after lunch, and after a super looooong nap, it became abundantly clear that the extra bit of rest benefitted me the whole rest of the week.
So a BIG HUMONGOUS BOX showed up on my doorstep today. :) My cousin and her family sent us a bunch of awesome stuff: healthy snacks for me, not so healthy snacks for superman and superkids, elephant paraphernalia, superman paraphernalia, and other miscellaneous gifts.
And I received this cross in the mail from my aunt a few weeks ago as well.
Gratitude, acceptance, and healing!